The other day I had someone say to me, "you are too attached to Edy". This was after me telling them that I had gone home early from work crying. It started with me calling home to see how she was doing. I could hear the frustration in Rock's voice and Edy fussing in the background. Rock told me she was having a rough day. I called later and could hear her again crying and fussing. That was it...the tears started rolling and I couldn't get them to stop. I know that hormones probably have a lot to do with this, but I just couldn't wait to get home to Edy to help her feel better. So I asked my boss, and being understanding as she is she said for me to get home as quickly as I could.
As I was telling this story to someone, they said, "grow up...your too attached". At the moment I was too shocked to say anything. I have never been good with instant come backs. But as I mulled over it that night and all the next day. As I do when things bother me I thought, wait a minute, I am NOT too attached. I have Waited all my life to meet this little person and I have only had her here for 4 months. I don't want to leave her and being that attached to someone I have waited my whole life for is not too attached.
I feel the same way about leaving her with other people. Leaving her my first week back to school was like torture. I cried every morning on my way to work. Knowing she is with her dad helps, but still is painful. As I said in a previous post. Being without her is like missing a body part. All day I think about her what she may be doing at that moment. What I am missing her do.
On the weekends and at night I just want to be with her. I am not sure I will be comfortable leaving her with a babysitter any time in the near future. It isn't that I don't trust others, I do. It is that I want to be with her, hold her, watch her grow. Like I said, I have been waiting my whole life for this little person, I am going to spend every second I can with her!
So to those who think I am too attached...Get over it! I could only hope that all moms were as attached as I am!
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